turbo heaven 🌼 kaworu

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[outdistanced]

...Yeah. It means there's a lot more you might end up, regretting, too, if you don't even try.

[ which is. unfortunately a very familiar feeling for laurence. ]

Surprised you haven't gotten sick of me already. [ hah. it's a bad attempt at a joke, but still. ] I can't make any promises except that I'll try not to let anything happen.

[peripheries]

Exactly. I don't want to use this time learning how to regret when I could spend it more moments being happy. Even if it hurts sometimes.

[He finally loosens the grip between his hands, fingers now simply intertwined without tension.]

I know you can't promise anything. We can just spend time together. I couldn't be sick of you because I like you very much.

[outdistanced]

That's how we're all supposed to live, I think.

[ kaworu makes that sound a lot easier than it is, most of the time.

...and he's so not used to someone being that upfront with him that he kind of flusters a little. tsun problems. ]

I just - I know I'm not that easy to get along with. So.

[peripheries]

That's true. But I also better understand how the fear of pain drives people to live other ways.

[He's an annoying alien guy like that! And also like this!]

I think a life of only doing things that are easy probably leads to a life of regrets. So even if it's difficult, you are worth it.

[outdistanced]

Yeah, well. I never said any of us are good at living that way. I’m definitely not.

...You really just say shit.

[ man. ]

[peripheries]

Is it something that I shouldn't say?

[He's just honest. And he could lie but it doesn't feel right. But if people don't like what he says then... perhaps he should lie.]

[outdistanced]

Not what I meant. Most people just... aren't that straightforward with stuff, I guess. It's a little embarrassing sometimes.

[peripheries]

I see. I guess I'm still learning.

[Two steps forward and one step back, never quite making it to where he wishes he were.]

[outdistanced]

[ sighs. he didn't mean it like that but he is physically incapable of saying so, probably. ]

Aren't we all.