outdistanced | turbo heaven 🌼 marcoh

I know.

Injuries will heal, but the spirit will take longer.

He isn't weak though. I think he can. We just need to help him too.

What can even we do? No one's going to be able to replace Mr. Yuan. They were friends.

We won't be a replacement. It would be disrespectful to Jiaoqiu too, to act like we can be. But we can be something else. Stitches until he heals.

He may not even want us to be.

...I guess it won't hurt to try. But I've never been good at taking care of people.

I think thirty-some people trying would be too much anyway.

Take care of yourself, first.

I... I'll be fine. I wasn't even the one in danger.

When people die, it is the rest who are alive who have to deal with the aftermath.

[ Your feelings matter or whatever ]

We're always stuck dealing with someone else's messes.

[ it takes a minute, but he nods. ]

Everyone here's always so nice. Almost too nice sometimes. [ like charlie... ] I'll be okay.

...You looked ready to fight yesterday.

If we didn't at least seem nice, I suppose we would not be here.

[ TBF. Thinks fondly about the assholes in Superhell again, Christ. Although I did think it'd be funny to play Eto again for Turboheaven for the irony of it. ]

...

I was angry.

[ This isn't said like it's an excuse, he gets it and is cognisant of it. ]

...Some of them don't.

[ dan. or... ]

You don't like-- [ pauses as he realizes he has no clue how to pronounce wis'adel's name. uhhhh ] ...that girl.

I didn't like how she spoke about Charlie, no.

She was blatant in thinking that it was only a matter of time until somebody "snapped" because of her. And how she spoke to Koharu, too.

Yeah, she went too far.

[ honestly laurence is ALSO kind of mad about both of those too, but especially koharu? she's just a kid. ]

She's a jerk, but it just made me worry we'd expel the wrong person. [ especially now that they know what that means.

good thing it won't happen again! ]

...

I don't regret pressing her. [ If he's honest. ] But I do agree, I am glad it didn't result in, "expelling" her.

When there was someone much more deserving.

...He might have deserved it, but I wish we didn't have to see it like that. And that Jiaoqiu wasn't involved at all.

What's done is done. We can't undo that.

We have to pull ourselves together and move forward.

Yeah... [ it just sucks! ] We don't really have that long for this redemption stuff, anyway.

[ gotta get their priorities straight, even if it feels weird to focus on that after today. ]

Eight weeks.

[ Seven now. He's staring off somewhere with furrowed brows. ]

Too long, but I'd rather it not be longer.

[ it's not that much time, laurence thinks, but... yeah. too long, still. ]

Yeah. And when we have important stuff to get back to, we can't waste the time we have, can we? It just... doesn't feel right to act like that didn't just happen.

We won't.

[ He could have a lot more to say to expand on that but he thinks that's enough. Laurence seems like a guy that would get it. They'll remember. ]

[ after a moment, he nods. ]

Someone said something about an altar...

It sounds like something Lucas would mention.

[ Don't just assign it to Lucas. But he seems quieter. ]

I asked. There is no body.

But I'd still like to do something. Maybe in the gardens. It looks nice there.

[ shakes does laurence know about funerals... what do they do when people die in the tower do they just disappear to be harvested.............. ]

Charlie deserves something.

[ only charlie. ]